The Women Project by Carol Rossetti

When looking for a theme, I opted for intersectionality for being something that I acknowledge as a personal issue. It always bothered me the world’s constant attempts to control women’s bodies, behaviors and identities. This control is such a deep part of our culture that we hardly ever realize how cruel it is and how it restricts our personal choices. However, I don’t believe it’s enough to discuss exclusively the issues that affect a specific group of women. We also need to talk about racism, homophobia, transphobia, classicism, xenophobia and ableism. The fight for equality and respect is very wide and should be inclusive.” -Carol Rossetti, website

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CR- babi

CR- bisexual

CR- kelly

CR- linda

CR- Maira

CR- sarah


For more images and information on Carol Rossetti please check out her website!

A Story of Madness

“Once upon a time, powerful wizard, who wanted to destroy an entire kingdom, placed a magic potion in the well from which the inhabitants drank. Whoever drank that water would go mad.

The following morning, the whole population drank from the well and they all went mad, apart from the king and his family, who had a well set aside for them alone, which the magician had not managed to poison. The king was worried and tried to control the population by issuing a series of edicts governing security and public health. The policemen and the inspectors, however, had also drunk the poisoned water, and they thought the king’s decisions were absurd and resolved to take notice of them.

When the inhabitants of the kingdom heard these decrees, they became convinced that the king had gone mad and was now giving nonsensical orders. The marched on the castle and called for his abdication.

In despair the king prepared to step down from the throne, but the queen stopped him, saying: ‘Let us go and drink from the communal well. Then we will be the same as them.’

And that was what they did: The king and queen drank the water of madness and immediately began talking nonsense. Their subjects repented at once; now that the king was displaying such ‘wisdom’, why not allow him to rule the country?

The country continued to live in peace, although its inhabitants behaved very differently from those of its neighbors. And the king was able to govern until the end of his days.”

From, Veronika Decides to Die by Paulo Coelho

Who  is really Mad? Is Madness always bad? What is normal? Things to ponder and apply to our own lives.



It was Saturday, I was heading home from work and I called B to see if he was going to come pick me up at my subway stop. He told me that our original plans weren’t happening and that he was going to leave his friend’s place soon to come pick me up. Not wanting to be a bad girlfriend I told B to stay at his friend’s and that I would take the bus home. This was not a happy decision on my part as I wanted him to be with me. It was in this moment, as I told myself I wasn’t being abandoned, that he loved me and I would see him soon, that I began to understood why I sometimes feel to disconnected….

B worked the entire week, including the weekend. The only time we had spent together was at night which was also when we’d spend a bit of time with his family and then go to sleep. While he was working I sat in our room and did nothing (I can’t find a job). I had noticed on Friday that I needed a longer hug from B to feel grounded, to feel real. So, that Saturday, on the bus, I realized that I feel like a ghost.

By ghost I mean that I am existing but not interacting with my environment. I don’t participate, I am just there. What brings this on is not enough time with people, especially ones I care about, and I guess simply being bored. This would explain why physical contact makes it go away. I need a physical reminder that I am present in the world, a participating member, that I can feel and that I’m not a ghost.

The definitions of dissociation have always confused me. I could never relate but I guess this is either the same thing or along similar lines.

Whatever it is, it’s pretty crappy.

Lived Experience Not Welcome

An op’ed posted in the Montreal Gazette by Melissa Pickles (what a wicked last name! I would love to see Dr. Pickles!) about how she remains silent about her experience with depression as a resident in psychiatry. She opens up her story about a doctor of oncology that she studied under who was a cancer survivor and everyone knew. Pickles writes,

“This had a powerful effect on his patient interactions: they clearly valued his disclosure. There was a sense that he was more trustworthy, more empathetic, more wise, for having undergone the same life-changing experience.”

Throughout my social work education and work I have seen the power and value of lived experience. Generally, certain services prefer and stress employing individuals with lived experience. Women’s shelters hire women, LGBT organizations hire LGBT individuals, HIV/AIDS groups hire individuals living with HIV/AIDS etc. But our mental health system seems to be the one place where having lived experience doesn’t work for you but against you. Yes, organizations hire individuals with lived experience for peer support and community engagement but what about for higher positions of authority such as social workers, nurses, psychiatrists or even upper management? I get the feeling that lived experience does not exist as much the higher up the chain of command you go (or at least lived experience that they’re willing to talk about).

The view of individuals living with mental health issues is not a good one. Not only is society taught to doubt us, we are taught to doubt ourselves. Our own symptoms are used against us and we are constantly discredited. I would argue that it is the only social sector that does not see lived experience as a valuable quality for a professional to have.

Pickles expresses it perfectly,

“In spite of the fact that I feel my history of mental illness has enriched my clinical abilities, I still worry that it will make others doubt my competence, or respect me less.”

This is not fair. It is unfortunate to think that there are many professionals out there (my friends/colleagues among them) who are discriminated against by their employers because they disclose lived experience. This becomes especially difficult when an individual with lived experience has a mental health record which employers can request access to during a vulnerable sector screening (this may be Canadian specific). While it is illegal to not hire or fire someone due to a mental health issue, employers are set up with a variety of excuses to do so because of the  discrimination within our society. A personal crisis where the police were called in as a safe mode of transportation can suddenly turn into “You may hurt the children,” despite having no history of violence towards others and a wealth of history working successfully with children (it’s the police involvement that give someone the mental health record). Most often, individuals with lived experience chose to pursue a career in mental health because of their lived experience (I know I did). It’s disappointing that discrimination and not actual evidence of poor work ethic can be the cause of so many dashed dreams.

I’ll end with a final quote from Pickles that illustrates the downfall of psychiatry for not welcoming lived experience,

“I’ve often worried that my own silence has helped to reinforce certain assumptions about mental illness — that recovery is impossible, or that mental illness should be kept secret. I think of the oncologist, who was able to use his experience with cancer to enrich patient care, and I wonder why this shouldn’t be the same for mental illness.

Many psychiatric organizations are taking on the challenge of stigma. But I wonder if we really can stay in our respective closets while still advocating for a society that is more open about mental illness.”


Writing A Book

A few people have suggested that I write a book. I have tried in the past, wrote down my ideas, gathered the historical information of my life and then just lost all enthusiasm for it. My main idea was publishing my journals in the hopes of shedding light on being a teenager with depression but it’s to strange of a feeling to read about my teen years and sometimes I was boring and looked like a fool so why would I want to share that in it’s entirety? Clearly a “Go Ask Alice” type of book is not for me at this point in time.

I recently bought Lena Dunham’s first book, “Not That Kind of Girl” and it has inspired me to approach this book writing thing a little differently. I don’t need to create something chronological to get my message across. I can bounce around with the topics, the timelines, the styles of writing and I can be as blunt as I want to be. What I really enjoy about Dunham’s writing is that she is funny about topics people might not want to be funny or she just writes it in such a way that you’re not uncomfortable (if you’re liberal and open to that stuff, that is). I want to write like that.

What would the book be about you may be thinking? Various topics and events that have happened to me. Some ideas I have are:

  • What a Borderline thinks of her diagnosis
  • Self harm
  • How I can turn everything into a failure
  • How much I love food and everyone hates that

They’re going to be little essays, short stories, lists, whatever.

So, what exactly is my plan? I was hoping some of you could help me! I know some of you have written books or are in the various stages of writing/publishing so I would like to know what helped you get everything out keeping in mind I’m poor and need as many free resources as possible.

Why Self Harm? (Article)

Found an amazing article on self harm this morning while scrolling through Facebook. The author combines her personal experience with self harm with academic research. Seriously, it’s pretty great!

Why self-harm?

Cutting brings relief because emotion and pain criss-cross in the brain. Can we untangle the circuits and stop self-harm?

“Over the years, I’ve tried to explain self-injury to my therapists, my parents, my friends and, most recently, my husband. Everyone has the same plaintive question: ‘Why?’ Mostly, I just shrug my shoulders and mutter: ‘Dunno.’ I don’t tell them that I am asking the same question of myself. I don’t enjoy the process, nor do I like the scars. It’s shameful and embarrassing. I desperately wanted to stop, but one thing kept getting in my way: after I cut, I felt better.”

“Gould and Pyle classified this ritualistic self-harm as a form of hysteria, and the women who engaged in it as deceitful and attention-seeking. In fact, until the early 2000s, most of the clinical literature classified self-injury with more severe psychiatric disorders such as psychosis and borderline personality disorder, a state of inner chaos and instability, especially where relationships are concerned.”


“‘Some women who self-injured were hospitalised every time they cut themselves, which could be hundreds of times over their lifetime. They essentially lived in hospitals,’ said Wendy Lader, the clinical director of a US self-abuse programme and one of the first psychologists to treat self-injury. ‘People thought I was crazy when I said that many of these people could be treated as outpatients because they weren’t necessarily suicidal.’”


“Compared against 47 controls, the individuals who self-harmed were able to leave their hands in the ice-cold water longer, indicating a diminished pain perception. Franklin also found that those with the greatest difficulties in regulating and responding to emotions were also able to withstand the pain the longest. It was as if their emotional pain was distracting them from the physical pain.”


“Yet cutters such as me didn’t self-harm to deal with physical pain. We hurt ourselves to cope with emotional pain. Neuroscience is showing how these two factors intertwine. When we get dumped by a romantic partner, we are heartbroken. Anxiety winds us up and leaves us ready to snap. Rage clenches our fists in hate. Emotions are psychological, but they are also physical. When it comes to sensing physical and emotional pain, our brains use the same two areas: the anterior insula, a small patch of neural real estate that’s part of the cerebral cortex behind each ear, and the anterior cingulate cortex, a hook-shaped piece of brain tissue towards the front of the brain. These are the areas in the brain that process pain, regardless of whether we’ve felt the sting of rejection or the sting of a bee.”

Comparing Autism & Borderline Personality Disorder


A great look at the similarities between BPD and ASD!

Originally posted on The Lefthander's Path:

Recently, Pride in Madness posted some memes from a Tumblr called “Shit Borderlines Do” and commented on how they related to her own experiences. I noticed some similarities with autistic traits and commented about this, and someone else responded wanting to know more about autism and how it might overlap with BPD. I will preface this by saying that I am not that familiar with Borderline Personality Disorder, I’ve know a couple people (in-person or online) with that label, I get the impression it’s a newer one that is somewhat controversial (but then isn’t every mental health label?) Links for more info on BPD at the bottom of the post.

“You notice the slightest difference in how someone treats you, and it bothers you for days on end”

The autistic or obsessive-compulsive version of this would be more likely to be “a school or work policy, procedure, or the way…

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Late Night Laugh

My sister posted a hilarious video which led me to many more (which is what Youtube does). It was a video of a group of people singing “One Day More” from Les Miserables but the song had gone through Google Translate a couple times.  The one that really got me laughing though was Colours of the Wind from Pocahontas. Check it out!

She has also done other Disney songs like Part of Your World (The Little Mermaid), A Whole New World (Aladdin), I’ll Make a Man Out of You (Mulan) and various Frozen songs, as well as some musical classics like Defying Gravity (Wicked) and Take Me or Leave Me (Rent).

This made my night!

Ableist Language

Ableist language and ableism is one of the last “isms” we really need to tackle in society. Many of us who experience the disability even use these words. I know I have successfully cut out most ableist language from my vocabulary, still some words are not as obvious. For example, I never would think that stupid was ableist but it is linked to intelligence and there individuals with intellectual and/or learning disabilities were stupid would be used to describe them.

I would like to challenge all of you to pick at least one word and try to eliminate it from your vocabulary. Can you challenge others to do the same?

ableist lang

Mad studies brings a voice of sanity to psychiatry

Mad studies brings a voice of sanity to psychiatry

A movement to bring people with experience of mental distress into the discourse around care and treatment can revive services in the UK
By: Peter Beresford, The Guardian, Tuesday 7 October 2014 14.00 BST

If the American Psychiatrist Association’s diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders (DSM-5) is the global bible of psychiatry, with its ever-growing list of psychiatric categories, then Mad Matters, bringing together academic and experiential knowledge on mental distress in Canada, is the guiding text of mad studies.

Mad studies has been pioneered by Ryerson and York Universities in Toronto, with key figures such as mental health survivors, activists and educators David Reville and Geoffrey Reaume and academics Kathryn Church and Brenda le Francois. They challenged the way that psychiatry was shaping their lives and challenged the discrimination that went with being considered mentally ill.

“What we’re trying to do is offer a counterpoint to the history of psychiatry, which is sort of a professional and a disciplinary history, with the lived experience of madness,” says Church. Building on their own mad history and mad studies courses, which centred on service users’ experience, they held an international conference in 2012.

Church argues that it is time that people trained to work in mental health aren’t just steeped in formal knowledge, but in the knowledge of the personal narratives of people who have been through the system. She also says that higher education should be made more accommodating to those who have experience of mental illness and its shaming labels. However, the big breakthrough was the publication last year of Mad Matters. Mad studies is now being picked up worldwide and has arrived in the UK with the first ever programme at the International Disability Studies conference at Lancaster University earlier this year.


So pleased to be a part of this movement in Canada and have worked with some of the individuals mentioned!

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