Mentally Ill Does Not Equal Suicidal Slut

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Saturday July 12 was SlutWalk Toronto 2014. I proudly shared my experience of being labelled with a mental illness and being a young woman.

When I first entered high school I was known as the “suicidal cutter” and then when I began having sex I was called the “suicidal slut”. At no point was support offered to me by those who felt the need to call me names. Their sole intention was to shame me for self harming, being depressed and having sex. To some I was even considered “exotic” because they thought that having sex with me would be some unique experience because I was labelled as mentally ill.

I am glad to have a platform, like SlutWalk, to share this experience.

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 4

Day 4: Do you consider yourself “addicted”? why or why not?

I 100% consider myself addicted to self harm. I may not self harm often (I haven’t in close to 3 months) but I am still drawn to the behaviour. I feel a craving, I get excited and sometimes it feels like it’s the only thing that can make me feel better. I have always believed that self harm can be an addiction and I’m glad that people are beginning to see it as an addictive behaviour.

I have often wondered that if my self harm had been seen and treated as an addictive behaviour then maybe I wouldn’t be almost 12 years into the behaviour.

Tips for Getting a Good Night’s Sleep! (Guest Post)

Thank you to Ali Qadir for writing such a helpful piece on sleep. I myself have difficulty getting a good night’s sleep and I’m sure many of you will also benefit from the tips below!

Tips for Getting a Good Night’s Sleep! 

Sleeping disorders can be a real pain. Its only when you sleep better that you get to carry out the next day’s tasks well. Most of us underrate a good night’s sleep. It doesn’t get the importance it should have. Sleep habits can directly or indirectly affect our health, success and life itself in many different ways. It has always been considered a blessing if one can sleep well without any issues. To be able to have this blessing yourself also, we have some useful tips to help you out.

First of all, you need to make a proper sleep and wake schedule. Sleeping and waking up at different time everyday, taking unnecessarily long naps in the afternoons can disturb your body clock which puts your body under stress and it can cause serious health issues. It also leaves you more tired actually affecting the entire day. So set a time for sleeping and stick to it, also wake up around the same time everyday as well. If you somehow lose some time of sleeping by sleeping late at night then take a nap in the early noon time which shouldn’t be too long. Sleeping late can not be compensated by waking up late the next day. It can totally destroy your routine. Also, giving your body enough light in the day and keeping your room dark at night can also help you build up a sleeping schedule. Your brain can be conditioned this way to form a sleep pattern with these stimuli of bright day and dark night to trigger mind to relax and prepare for sleep. If you need to wake up and go to the bathroom at night, I would suggest using a torch instead of turning the lights on for that matter.

Many people like watching TV while in bed for sleep expecting it to relax them. Instead of relaxing, it keeps your brain more active by the visuals and the screen you watch. So, if you still need something you can listen to songs that are soothing and help you relax for real. It is important to have a mind free of stress and worries to be able to sleep better. Using cell phones, tablets, mp3 players or any device that uses a back light are also harmful for you. Deep breathing while lying down in your bed can help you get away from the world’s worries. If you still have a hard time shutting that side of your mind off, try imagining a peaceful place and you’ll feel as if you fell asleep in no time.

Along with these, what you eat can also affect your sleeping pattern. Try cutting short on your caffeine items like coffee and avoid smoking or alcohol at night. Drink less liquids at night so you wouldn’t be disturbed in your sleep repeatedly. Eat healthy food and avoid any sorts of heavy meals before you sleep, having dinner early is the best option and if you still have to eat something at night then eat a fruit like a banana. Along with these your room temperature can also disturb you while sleeping, a room too cold or too hot are both bad for your sleep. These things can interrupt in your sound sleep leaving you agitated the next day even when you fell asleep at proper time and easily.

Sleeping disorders can be a symptom of bigger body issues as well or even lead to bigger problems and disorders so it is important to go to the doctor if you still feel difficulty sleeping or fall asleep repeatedly anytime of the day, still feel fatigue, or snore excessively. Have a sound sleep!

 

Author Biography:

Ali Jan Qadir is passionate about art, food and fitness. He loves to shares things he has learned by experience. He is a contributor for a mattress blog, where he talks about things such as which is the  Top mattress Brand . If you want to learn more about him visit his twitter or Google+ profile.

The Dangers of Benzodiazepine Addiction [Infographic]

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Abuse = Love

It is so ingrained in me, to want abusive behaviours from partners. I hate the behaviours, I fight them and run away from them but as soon as I enter a relationship that shows no signs on abusive behaviours I begin to believe that the person truly doesn’t care about me.

What do I mean by abusive behaviours? Currently, I’m  talking about isolation. I still equate not going out with friends (for example) with devotion and love. I feel that if the person I’m with actually loves me then they do not need to go see friends, especially without me. I know this is not the case. My logical side knows that isolation in a relationship is damaging and not what I want in mine. But, I guess we could call it my “trauma side” is telling me that I need to  be worried and start fighting to make sure I am safe.

I find it very disturbing that the behaviours I quickly came to hate are also the ones I depend on in some way.

30 Day Self Harm Awareness Challenge: Day 3

Day 3: What is your motivation to recover?

I don’t know if I feel motivated to recover from self harm currently. Self harm seems to be a behaviour in my life that comes and goes. It goes more than it sticks around and I am happy about that. I either need it in my life or I don’t.

I guess, if I have to pick a motivator, it would be the scars. I don’t like looking at them and they bring me great shame.

As much as I hate talking about my self harm I do feel very “whatever” about it.

30 Day Mental Illness Awareness Challenge: Day 11

Day 11: What is the worst thing in regard to your mental illness(es)?

I believe the worst thing about Borderline Personality Disorder is people either knowing nothing about it or knowing everything 30 day challengeabout it in the wrong way.

While I love having the opportunity to explain BPD for myself, it does become exhausting because BPD is not something you can sum up in a few words. Being unfamiliar with it probably also makes it scary for the listener when I talk about having rage, impulse and perception problems. On the opposite side, the people who know everything in the wrong way, assume the worst about me and have no problem going out of their way to make sure I (and all those with BPD) know that I am the scum of the Earth.

So, to summarize. What is the worst thing in regard to my mental health issue?

THE STIGMA AND DISCRIMINATION!!!

Psychiatric Drugs Send 90,000 to the ER Yearly

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After my initial ER at 13 (I was fine, my parents were just rightfully scared) my next two ER visits were for damage I had done while on psychiatric drugs.

Originally posted on Beyond Meds:

Can you say iatrogenic injury? Never mind the many thousands of us who suffer protracted withdrawal issues causing disability that are completely denied by the medical establishment…most of us have to start hiding from doctors who want to give us more drugs rather than give our poor bodies the chance to heal.

See: Psychiatric Drugs Send 90,000 to the ER Yearly

The researchers found that about 60 percent of the ER visits were related to 10 specific psychiatric medications, taken either alone or in combination. Of these, the drug in Ambien was implicated in the most visits (10,212 visits), followed by Seroquel, an antipsychotic drug used to treat people with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia(6,900 visits), and the anti-anxiety drug Xanax, along with its generic forms (5,616 visits). (read more)

thanks to Mad in America for the link to this article

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30 Day Self Harm Awareness- Day 2

Day 2: What part of your body is most affected by it?

When I was in high school I went through a period of where my wrists were probably the most effected. Cutting in that particular spot made me feel better than cutting on other parts of my body. Now, at 25, I would have to say that my legs, upper thighs, are the most effected by self harm. There are many scars there still whereas other parts of my body, such as my arms, the scars have faded and in some cases disappeared. My legs began to be the most effected as an adult because I could/can easily hide them with pants. Where I self harm is strategic now instead of impulsive and wherever I want like when I was a teen.

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30 Day Mental Illness Awareness Challenge- Day 10

Day 10: What is the best thing in regards to your mental illness(es)?

The best thing in regards to my mental health issue would be my anger. Once I became angry (instead of depressed) I began to stand30 day challenge up for myself and express when I felt uncomfortable with something. While I do not always express it in the right way it has given me opportunities to learn better ways to communicate with others that many will probably never learn due to the believe that they are normal and I am not.

My anger also drove me to pursue mental health activism. The anger turned into passion and when I see or experience an injustice I want to fight it. My anger makes me want to do something which I didn’t experience when I was depressed. When I was on an antidepressant and was less angry I found that my desire to help others and fight discrimination was drastically reduced. Since ending the medication the anger has returned and I fell more up to the challenge again.

While anger does make my life difficult and at times unbearable, the positives have been very positive.

Previously: Day 9

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