No Laughing Matter
I told Michael last night that in an attempt to face my pain I am going to stop saying, “Whatever”, “I don’t care” and stop making jokes about what I’ve experience and what I’m feeling.
I adore humour and have no problem trying to see the bright side of my experiences but I feel they are becoming blockers in my recovery. I don’t want to take anything seriously and I don’t want pity so I make jokes or shrug it off. This also means I never have to explain myself and everyone thinks I’m ok….including myself.
Tonight is the second of four presentations I’m making with the youth mental health organization I’m a part of. I’m going to tell them that I’m going to try and not make jokes to hide my pain and we’ll see how it goes.
I personally think I will fail but no harm in trying.