I met Michael’s niece on Sunday They (his sister and her husband) were visiting Toronto so we went out for brunch! It was very exciting to finally meet her!
At one point the topic briefly went to soothers and I shared a story about how I had a “soother dependency”. I loved my soother when I was little but for some reason would always throw it. My Mom would go pick it up, wipe it off and give it back to me. We would then repeat this daily.
Finally, I threw my soother and my Mom decided that she wasn’t going to pick it up. She kept pushing me in the stroller and we continued our walk. I never had another soother again. My Mom said that I would cry at night for it and that we had to stay away from the baby aisle at the drugstore.
My theory is that I began biting my nails and chewing my fingers as another way to comfort myself in the absence of a soother.
You never know!
In the back of “Manufacturing Depression” by Gray Greenberg he provides a list of questions based off of the reading. My responses on strictly my personal opinion based off my experiences with depression and medication. Everyone will have a different answer and I encourage you all to comment with your own answers
How does the concept of “On this medication, I am myself at last” (35) make you feel? Can taking medication make you yourself or does such a dependency negate that?
To say that taking medication makes me who I’m supposed to be then you are admitting that there is a baseline that everyone has to follow and that at one point you had it but now it’s gone. Especially when this is supposed to be chemical, genetic, something we’re supposed to always have, then our depressive symptoms are who we are per se. To change that would to be changing who we are. Medication then basically creates us (and in my opinion fails) into this ideal person that we believe we need to be.
I know that some medications are needed for people to live, and for some they need to take it for the rest of their lives. I don’t take medication because it failed at making me this ideal self it claims it will do. I have “found myself at last” on my own and it’s awesome.