Borderline Personality Disorder Workbook Session 3 Part 12: Activities Part 4

CHRONIC FEELINGS OF EMPTINESS AND BOREDOM

Please say YES or NO

I constantly feel restless NO

I am always feeling bored NO

I feel really scared about being on my own NO

I feel confused when others are around NO

I constantly have feelings of emptiness NO

I will go to any lengths not to be alone YES

1.      Are there any other feelings that you have experienced which relate to your life having no meaning or purpose which has not been mentioned above?

No.

Emptiness can be described as being unable to feel anything emotionally.

2.      Would this best describe how you feel?

Fuck no, I feel too much!

 “Boredom can be described as being uninterested and knowing that you must do something but don’t know what. Otto Fenichel (1951) described boredom as a sort of emotional withdrawing.”

3.      Would this best describe how you feel?

No.

 

SUICIDE BEHAVIOUR

Please say YES or NO

I have attempted to take my life YES

I have made suicidal threats on occasions YES

I don’t necessarily want to die but to escape from my situation YES

4.      Which other feelings have you gone through which relate to your suicide ideation?

I used to mix prescriptions drugs and alcohol, take lots of pills or cut my wrists with the belief that if I died then that was ok but if I didn’t then oh well. Now I’m stuck with just not being troubled if I die. I won’t pursue it but I don’t know if I’d fight it or if I should fight it if it happens. Feeling of just not caring.

 

GREAT FEAR OF ABANDONMENT

Please say YES or NO

I will do anything to stop people I love from leaving me YES

I fear people will eventually abandon me YES

I keep asking my partner if they are going to leave me YES

I am terrified of being rejected YES

I rely a lot on others for emotional support YES

I rely a lot on others to make decisions for me NO

I fear disapproval from others YES

5.      Are there any other feelings that you have experienced which relate to you being neglected or feel that you may be left behind?

The neglected and rejected feelings produce my anger, feelings of worthlessness, the desire to hurt myself or kill myself.

 

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