Doesn’t Exist

Bourbon’s recent post Multiple Personalities Doesn’t Exist: a reply reminded me of when people would tell me that my depression wasn’t real or that I was cutting for attention.

I used to believe that DID wasn’t real or that it was at least suspicious. I never stated this opinion though because I knew I was in no place to say it. My own experience with an alter changed my belief in DID but I am careful with who I mention this too because of the people who Bourdon has mentioned in her post.

I have two things to say about this.

First…..

An outsider does not get to decide if a person’s experience is real! End of story, that’s it, face it!

Second,

If someone is “faking” then that is still a problem that needs to be addressed. I know this thought doesn’t support the validity of any mental health issue but I would say that to people when they accused me of faking or wanting attention. Even if I was cutting for attention (and to some extent I was) then someone should find out why I feel I need to go to such drastic measures! If I was faking depression then it should be important to know why I feel acting sad all the time will give me something that I feel I’m not getting.

Bottom line, stay out of it. I really don’t need to hear your opinion on my issues unless they are going to help me, not demean me.

 

Something I’ve Always Wanted

My partner, before he left to visit his family for Easter and meet his new little niece, said something to me that I swear no one has ever asked me unless prompted.

“Are you ok?”

This warmed my heart!

For years people have either ignored the fact that I feel like garbage or only asked how I was when I was clearly distressed. As I’m sure some of you know it can be the times when you smile to hide the pain is when you need someone to take notice.

I am fine, and that’s what I told him, but I haven’t been feeling at the top of my game as of late. Maybe I need a break from all this mental health stuff I’m doing. Possibly I’m just burnt out?

Whatever it is, thank you my love for asking me. I can’t explain how it made me feel to hear you say that. It gives me hope that I and we are not a disaster even if we sometimes feel like. I think we got a good thing going on and I’ll always give you everything I’ve got!

(end of sappy moment…he’s been away for a few days lol)