Thought #2: Don’t Forget

Thought: I was listening to Linkin Park last night with my Bestie and got a sudden remembrance of what it was like to be experiencing depression. I sang a line from Easier to Run, “It’s easier to run, replacing this pain with something numb. It’s so much easier to go than face all this pain here all alone.” I remembered how horrible it was to feel like I was going to die hating myself, feeling nothing but everything at the same time, and feeling like I was never going to escape this black hole I was living in. It’s shitty waking up wanting to die every day but being upset that if you did die that day your life had been wasted with pain. I don’t feel this way anymore. For those who do, I hope you can get out of it, and most importantly, know that you can. I didn’t really have positive mental health role models in my life. I was the first person I knew who “recovered” from a mental illness. Now I’m inspired by many men and women who on various levels identify as recovered or well. Find these people! They are a great help!

Everyone should listen to this album! The songs said what I couldn't.