I recently saw The Avengers 2: Age of Ultron. The Hulk is a part of The Avengers and he is a character that I have identified with for some time (and have mentioned this my blogs a few times, just search Hulk). There was a scene in the movie that I thought gave a good visual of my rage; what it sort of used to look like and what it still feels like inside.
*Spoiler Alert!* If you don’t want to know what happens in the movie then don’t read or view further!!!!
In this scene, Bruce Banner has transformed into The Hulk but in it’s uncontrolled form due to another character tampering with his mind. The Hulk is on a massive rampage and it’s up to Iron Man to stop him (which is a little hard to do).
This is the war that can go on inside of me and sometimes it spills out. It is chaotic, out of control, aggressive, there is not thought behind it, it simply just is and does. Iron Man in the role represents the voice in my head that is trying to keep it together. When Iron Man told everyone to “stand down” almost laughed out loud because that is what I need from others when I’m getting upset; no instigation and probably alone time. The battle is worth it as I deserve the peace and control.