Rage and self hate (that’s more of a state of mind than emotion but a better term is failing to come to mind). I find it very difficult to contain either of those emotions, experiences and feelings. They slam into me, cut me apart and then leave.
I can of course contain the rage and self hate but I must admit I am out of practice. Over the past couple months it became easier and more desirable to let all the negativity take over my mind and body. I need to get back on track.