I can understand how my mind can do what I’m about to explain but I guess it’s more so the why. What is the point?
How do I convince myself that bad things are happening to me?
My partner is out and my thought process is…
“He said he wouldn’t be long but it’s been 5 hours!”
“He doesn’t care about me that why he’s not texting me despite it being late.”
“I’m sitting at home on a Friday doing work and he’s out doing something.”
“I want to get him back for this.”
Nothing is happening….truly…..no wrong is being done. Seriously. If the occasion was appropriate I would be out with him.
Well, I’m still getting overwhelmed with “fuck this” so I guess I’ll just stop and get back to making my supply order list for work.
But ya, how do I manage to do this? I gain nothing from this!