The past two nights I have been speaking in a University class. Each night I have finished sharing my story, I have sat down and started berating myself. I think of everything I should of said, how I shouldn’t have been so scattered and I tell myself that no one cares about what I have to say. It’s also hard because I do not like talking about my past without being constructive about it and I would actually prefer to talk about where I am now as that’s the part I care most about. It really is all in my control but I want what I say to match what the other speakers are saying. The fact of the matter is, my story is not the same as the other speakers and I do not see myself and my experience the same way they do.
I guess I should just suck it u p and write out my story. I usually like to wing it but if I’m always unsatisfied then why should I not do something to fix it?