This past Saturday (August 1) B and I moved into an apartment. After 1 year of living with his Mom and Step-Dad we finally got out and into our own place. I was (and still am) very excited but it seems like every day brings a new challenge. First, the moment we came into the unit on moving day, there was bits of ceiling on the floor which, as we saw, came from previous water damage to the ceiling that I didn’t notice before. Second, the toilet broke. Third, we found out our unit does not have a phone jack and cannot currently hook up our internet. And fourth, I heard from another tenant that the previous tenants in our unit left because the ceiling was leaking and suggested we keep our eyes open for leaks.
All of that within a week.
The ceiling does feel dry and has been patched so it doesn’t look ugly. We were given a brand new toilet which is pretty nice (no lever, it has a button), and we’re going to discuss with the landlord about installing a phone jack and let them know that we are aware that our unit has a history of leaks and that we trust it has been fixed. So, everything is being dealt with. I am just trying to keep the negative thoughts at bay that say I have made a mistake moving to this building and that I am stupid. The stress is physically showing. I am not sleeping well, I am anxious and have been clenching my jaw so much that it hurts. I haven’t made time to practice DBT skills because there has been so much to organize!
But, I have decided today that I NEED to start being more skillful. Tonight, I am going to listen to a guided meditation that we listened to in my DBT class before I go to bed. I will continue using my anti-stress pillow spray and light and candle to give my bedroom a nice, comfortable glow. I will focus on how I have my friend coming over for dinner and that B is supportive of our decision to move here and that we will face the good and the bad together.
Now, here are some pictures of my place!!! We have done a great job of fixing it up and making it look awesome!!!